The Longest Day Eveeeeeeeer!!!

So today was just extremely long! I had to get up at 4:55 AM (!!!!!!!!!!) in order to shadow an Inceptor. I worked there from 5:45 to 8:45 then went to my last GSU 1010 class (tear...) at 9:00 to present on a final research paper topic and back to Incept from 10:45 to 2:00! Afterwards I went home to clean and pack for the weekend back in Commerce. I had to come back for Whitney and Andrea's birthdays. I drove home and left 30 minutes after getting here to go back to Athens for Drea's birthday dinner and am finally at the Commerce home to stay!!! I wasn't lying about the busy part.

Inceptor shadowing was fun. I met a lot of cool people and got a lot of experience for the possible job. Some budding friendships even began...my best friend, Toesin and my partner in crime, Charity. Today I finaly made my decision for my future schooling. If I don't get the job as an Inceptor it's bye bye Goergia State and hello Georgia Southern (wut wut my Southern friends!). If I get the job I'll stick it out at State at least through next Fall.

Andrea's party...awkward. I didn't know anyone besides Drea, Andy, Anna-Marie, and Andy Moon (???). I kinda know Liz and Shannon, but not well enough to be completely interactive with them. There were like 4 or 5 others. I gave Drea a snowglobe I got for free at the Commons and a hilarious card!!! :)

Today I also decided that no matter how many new friends I have, nothing will compare to my CHS ones. I thought about all the friends I've made since coming to GSU (which is not many) and none of them compare to my old friends. It's sad because it shows my innability to grow on my own and let go of the past. Don't get me wrong, I love the fact that I'm still so close to the high school buds, but I would like to say that I don't think about them everyday...I can't say that.

I also realized last night, while writing a research paper on anxiety, that most of my worries and stress are due to my lack of self-worth outside of the approval of others. How stupid! Why can't I be proud of myself for who I am, instead of what I do that gets a gold star. IDK. I try to adjust my perception of myslef and then one small disapproval from someone else brings me right back where I started from. I need to see counselor! Maybe Dr. Arranz, my GSU 1010 professor, will counsel me?! He's pretty cool!

That's all for today folks! Excepet I am going to try to find a good quote for each of my posts now. I think I'll start with this one because it is a lesson I need to learn!

"Change is the law of life. And those who look only to the past or present are certain to miss the future." -JFK