Empire State of Mind

So right now my life probably couldn't be going better, except I wish I was making progress with a certain girl...but am not! A lot of good things are happening right now though.

Good Things:

1. I am a 2010 GSU Inceptor, which is like other schools "ambassadors." Basically, I will be showing new students around all summer and get paid WELL for it.
2. I am still on winter break. I have been out of school since Dec. 3rd and still have until Jan. 11th. I've gotten to spend a lot of time with my family and old friends! Christmas was great! New Year's Eve is coming up (and it looks like I will probably be spending it at Liz's apartment)! The Inceptor winter retreat is just around the corner! It's been great.
3. I did really well in school my first semester.
4. I have shown signs of a more mature person, that I hope will continue to develop, over the past few weeks. My family can see a difference through the lessening of being argumentative. One friend noticed the change when I actually didn't respond in anger to a provoking conversation.

Of course there are a few bad things...

Bad Things:

1. Sadly, an old friendship is just completely dead. It had been flat-lining for a while and has now withered away.
2. My relationship with my dad is not getting any better. We've never been really close, but it's getting to the point that other family members notice...
3. The previously mentioned lack of progress.

As always good comes with bad, but right now the good is definitely outweighing the bad. I am starting to realize who I am, who is important to me, and that I can't make everyone like me, but the people who do are pretty awesome. I am beginning to be more comfortable in my own skin, but I still have a long way to go in this department. All in all, things are going well. This will probably be my last post of 2009, so farewell '09...you were a beautiful, eventful, and revealing year!

Unrest of spirit is a mark of life; one problem after another presents itself and in the solving of them we can find our greatest pleasure. - Kal Menninger

Gossip Girl...

OK world, sadly I let Ashleigh watch Gossip Girl in my room the other day and was mildly entertained. Yes, I hate me too! Very embarrassing and lame. I figured out a few things about the show:

1. Gossip Girl is full of beautiful people who can't act and who probably won't have careers after it's cancellation.

2. Gossip Girl has no plot, which is why they need the beautiful people to hide that fact under a pile of drool.

3. I could not give less of a damn about Chuck and Blair. Why are they on there? They are neither beautiful nor interesting.

4. Nate and Sareena should be together and make lots of beautiful, bad acting babies. They probably will be by the series finale.

5. Maureen is crazy! SUPER CRAZY!!!

6. Dr. Douche needs to grow a pair. He left Sareena in a wrecked car!!!

7. I could still not give less of a damn about Chuck and Blair. They are still ugly and boring.

8. Taylor Momson is good looking! Very gorgeous, meaning she is probably the worst actor (but maybe not because Chace Crawford is pretty monotoned)!!!

8. I came in on the season finale and knew everything that had happened all season, meaning not much went on.

9. KRISTEN BELL IS THE WORST NARRATOR OF AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAALL TIME!!!!!

10. There is not 10, I just like the number.

So there you have it. That's my take on a show with below average acting and above average looks.

The Longest Day Eveeeeeeeer!!!

So today was just extremely long! I had to get up at 4:55 AM (!!!!!!!!!!) in order to shadow an Inceptor. I worked there from 5:45 to 8:45 then went to my last GSU 1010 class (tear...) at 9:00 to present on a final research paper topic and back to Incept from 10:45 to 2:00! Afterwards I went home to clean and pack for the weekend back in Commerce. I had to come back for Whitney and Andrea's birthdays. I drove home and left 30 minutes after getting here to go back to Athens for Drea's birthday dinner and am finally at the Commerce home to stay!!! I wasn't lying about the busy part.

Inceptor shadowing was fun. I met a lot of cool people and got a lot of experience for the possible job. Some budding friendships even began...my best friend, Toesin and my partner in crime, Charity. Today I finaly made my decision for my future schooling. If I don't get the job as an Inceptor it's bye bye Goergia State and hello Georgia Southern (wut wut my Southern friends!). If I get the job I'll stick it out at State at least through next Fall.

Andrea's party...awkward. I didn't know anyone besides Drea, Andy, Anna-Marie, and Andy Moon (???). I kinda know Liz and Shannon, but not well enough to be completely interactive with them. There were like 4 or 5 others. I gave Drea a snowglobe I got for free at the Commons and a hilarious card!!! :)

Today I also decided that no matter how many new friends I have, nothing will compare to my CHS ones. I thought about all the friends I've made since coming to GSU (which is not many) and none of them compare to my old friends. It's sad because it shows my innability to grow on my own and let go of the past. Don't get me wrong, I love the fact that I'm still so close to the high school buds, but I would like to say that I don't think about them everyday...I can't say that.

I also realized last night, while writing a research paper on anxiety, that most of my worries and stress are due to my lack of self-worth outside of the approval of others. How stupid! Why can't I be proud of myself for who I am, instead of what I do that gets a gold star. IDK. I try to adjust my perception of myslef and then one small disapproval from someone else brings me right back where I started from. I need to see counselor! Maybe Dr. Arranz, my GSU 1010 professor, will counsel me?! He's pretty cool!

That's all for today folks! Excepet I am going to try to find a good quote for each of my posts now. I think I'll start with this one because it is a lesson I need to learn!

"Change is the law of life. And those who look only to the past or present are certain to miss the future." -JFK

TV Wednesday 12/3/09

So this is my first blog post ever and I figured I should talk about my number one interest right now...my Fall TV schedule.

Today there was Glee, the excellent new musical comedy on Fox about a group of misfits and formerly popular kids who are all talented singers. I have never heard someone with such interesting diction as Sue Sylvester, the cheerleading coach and an avid opposer of the Glee club,, played by Jane Lynch! What a character!

Ex: "I'm about to vomit down your back!"

"Your fears of persecution are a tale tale sign of early dementia."

It is about to go on a Fall break so I will probably pick up Law & Order:SVU on NBC at 9:00. It's good, but it's not Glee.

After my 9:00 dosage of musical hilarity I move on to the always classy Real World/Road Rules Challenge at 10:00 on MTV. On this nifty piece of work all the fun, trashy stars we know and love from the Real World and Road Rules (which sadly has been cancelled for a few years) come together to compete in physical challenges to win money. It's full of deception, betrayal, sex, and competition. Each season has its own fun twist. This season is called The Ruins, Champions vs. Challengers, set in Thailand! They are always in some beautiful location not near me.

Tonight I had a special treat. There was a Duke basketball game on during my television programming. I decided to become a Duke basketball fanatic this year because I need to be a crazed fan of something. Sadly, Duke played horribly and lost to Wisconsin giving the Big 10 their first victory ever in the ACC/Big 10 Challenge. Oh well, there is still a long season ahead.

Moving on, I star my week on Mondays with Heroes at 8:00 on NBC, which follows regular people with extraordinary gifts. The 4th season is EXCELLENT!!! Much better than the God awful 2nd season and the mediocre 3rd season. Sadly Heroes has become a victim of TV fads and now that all the hype is gone there are only about 6-7million viewers. This is quite a drop from the original 14million. Next, I move on to Greek at 9:00 on ABC Family. It is on hiatus right now. The show follows a group of college students involved Greek Life...hilarious, dramatic, and fun.

Tuesday is kind of a dry night. I watch The Biggest Loser, 8:00 on NBC, when I feel like it. It can be inspirational, but it gets repetitive watching people lose weight every week. This week I had the extra special treat of watching North Carolina win, which sucks!

Wednesday has already been covered.

Thursday is Vampire Diaries night 8:00. It is the only show on the whole CW network worth ANYTHING!!! There is actually a plot. Some vampire brothers move back to their old town and in Twilight-esque fashion one brother falls in love with a human girl. The process of siring a human in this show is quite complicated. There's something about being killed and drinking vampire blood...IDK. Every episode is a roller coaster ride without any slow moving spells.

Friday and Saturday are my days off. I actually do social things on those days.

Sunday brings us to "Animation Domination" on Fox beginning at 8:00. I actually don't start watching until 8:30 when the new Family Guy spin-off, The Cleveland Show begins. This follows the Griffins slow-talking, happy-go-lucky neighbor Cleveland Brown as he moves back to his hometown. He has a new family and it is a lot like Family Guy with less flashbacks. I continue on Fox with Family Guy, the most hilarious and original show I have ever seen. It is incredibly offensive, innovative, and poorly animated. It is just great though. The wittiness of the writers is just too much!

At 10:00 I move on to Brothers & Sisters on ABC. This drama brings out the middle-aged man in me. It follows the Walker family, headed by Sally Field, and the drama that surrounds their lives. Each episode has the same set up:exciting issue that not everyone knows about, secrets get told, everyone finds out, they all get mad, and they make up. It is much better than I made it sound. Also, I have a weird crush on Calista Flockheart...I don't know why...and she is on there.

That covers my Fall 2009 TV schedule....but wait not it doesn't! I almost forgot about the straight-to-syndication diamond in the rough Legend of the Seeker!!! This is quite possibly my favorite show right now. It was created by ABC/Disney but they didn't think it would do well so it went into syndication right off the bat. It comes on local channels at local times. The show follows Richard Cyper, the Seeker, Kahlan, the Mother Confessor, Zed, a wizard, and a new addition this season was Cara, a Mord Sith who pledged her allegiance to Richard. The plot consists of Richard fighting different evil things with the help of the others. The first seasons main antagonist was Darken Rauhl, who Richard killed. The second villain is the Keeper of the underworld. It's full of cool fight scenes, interesting landscape, and a budding love triangle between Kahlan, Richard, and Cara.

Now I'm done talking about the magnificent TV shows I watch. Everyone should have such good taste!